Women often struggle with their feelings of Love for their partner. Perhaps others have suggested that you are crazy for still loving him. You are not crazy. You are having normal feelings that make a lot of sense, given your situation.
It is ok to still love him, because you are strong. You can still love because you know loving is worth the pain. Because Love forgives, keeps no record of wrongs, is kind, and is hopeful. Love endures.
But loving him this time means loving him from a distance. Loving him to let him be. Loving him with no expectations whatsoever. Loving him because it is the right thing to do. Loving him because you always will.
Peace comes with the choice that you made, knowing that even if he caused you such pain and so much sadness, your ability to love is still the same.
Over time, memories of past relationships start to fade, day by day, until one day you realize you did not even think about him all day. Then you go two days. Then three. Until the time comes where you realize that you do not really think about him anymore.
That is what happens to everyone when they get over a breakup. But what happens when it is been months, or even years – and you are still thinking about him.
You are not over him because even after all that time you are still in love with him. It is like an addiction.
You know it is going to hurt you, you know it is not going to make you feel good, you know that nothing good will come of it – but you still check on him.
And I remember when I met him, it was so clear that
He was the only one for me
We both knew it, right away
And as the years went on, things got more difficult
We were faced with more challenges
I begged him to stay
Try to remember what we had at the beginning
He was charismatic, magnetic, electric and everybody knew it
When he walked in every woman’s head turned, everyone stood up
To talk to him
He was like this hybrid, this mix of a man who couldn’t contain himself
I always got the sense that he became torn
Between being a good person and
Missing out on all of the opportunities
That life could offer a man as magnificent as him
And in that way I understood him
And I loved him
I loved him, I loved him, I loved him
And I still love him
I love him